Why?

The more I dive into the pool of love and bliss, the more i drown in pain.

I may sound so cynical, but it is really true for me. I had my own share of pains and hell with LOVE. I hate seeing couples, not that i really hate them.. but it makes me envious. How do they manage to keep each other for a long time without losing their own identity? uRGh!

It is been seven boring months since we broke up. I can say I am better now. No more sleepless nights and bad dreams. No more tears. No more love for him. No more.

I promised myself that I will let a year pass before I open my door for new prospects. That is because i don't feel like i need a guy in my life now. Not that i need one after a year, but because there is so much in my life that I don't think a guy is necessary.

I came up with few reasons why (from my point of view):

1. Guys are inborn liars. Good example? R.H.L.F
2. Girlfriends are fun to be with that i don't notice I am single.
3. FAMILY completes me.
4. I'm lucky in business than in LOVE.
5. Sucha pain in the a**. haha
6. I don't have to leave the house for dates.
7. (follow up to #6) Less calorie intake. Less flabs. haha
8. Saves up your load. haha
9. No demands.

I know some would object, but who cares? I have my own reasons. =)

Having a beau may be ecstatic for some, as for me... I really don't know anymore. Lies have been my greatest enemy and trust is fragile. I cant stand being with a guy who lies 24/7. (haha)

Oh Lord, Please help me believe in love again.