The Day I stopped pleasing people..

For 22 years, I never noticed. I was busy pleasing everybody.

I have been the goodie good daughter..
..the one who never broke curfew rules when I was twelve...
..one who was scared of telling my mom about crushes and all..
..Dad's lil girl who does everything to remain as the apple of his eye..
..never demanded anything more than my mom's wallet can afford..


and at school.. I was..
..someone who's scared of failing marks.. 75 was not ok for me.. NEVER WOULD IT BE.
..I'd rather burn all my time doing all the groupworks/projects just to save my GRADE and my groupmates..
..The LIL-MISS-ITS-OK girl..
..kind enough to lend my assignments (without hearing a word)

with friends..
i tend to be so kind that sometimes its out of my limits..
i love keeping all my friends.. and i don't argue much with them.. I shut my mouth `cause i hate arguments!
i do things for them too.. at times...

the GF..
i am the not the jealous type.. unless i have proof..
i believe lies.. haha stupid!
i adjust all the time.. forgetting my identity.. BAD!
ive been good.. and end up miserable. eehk!


Been busy pleasing all people for them to like/love me...
and now I realized, it doesn't mean a thing..
I forgot how it is to live a happy free life..
and I NEED TO STOP!


I AM TIRED OF IT..

ILL learn to SAY NO!
ill say what i want.
ill be myself.
the hell i care about what they'll say...

THIS TIME.. ILL DO IT FOR MYSELF!

**if they wont love me for the way i am..
then i dont need them... =)

xoxo,
`kae